prettty preeety

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soon the streets of missoula will be covered with snowy snow. and then they will just push it into piles in the middle of the street rather than taking it away. it is great fun to hurdle the mountain when trying to get from break espresso to worden's market to get the fine cornucopia sandwich. that's the one with the turkey and cream cheese and dried cranberries, sunflower seeds and all kinds of yummy-yummy.

happy thanksgiving.

one month to go

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again, i apologize. well, not really. it's hard work preparing for a wedding. but well worth it. on the 17th of next month, i will be wed to a beautiful and wonderful young lady. afterwards, we will fly far far away to ecuador for a week.

please check out the wedding site. it's quite great.

sorry i'm so lame

so this has turned into the lamest blog ever...
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i apologize.

but, in the meantime, please check out www.jillandryan.net to see what i've really been up to in the last month.

speaking of which, i was at the nats game on saturday and sat one row behind "steve" from the jerry springer show. i really didn't know who this person was, but apparently he's famous.

the washington nationals

so...

i've been to four nationals games so far this season. i watch on tv if they are on. i listen to the radio. i read the box scores. the team site is my home page for firefox.

...

i never thought i'd be hooked again.

they got me.

i lived in montana for four and half years and thought that i'd escaped the lure of professional sports, but having a pro baseball team within walking distance of my apartment has changed everything. i thought i'd given my life over to coffee and all things artsy and alternative, but, still, there it is, plain as day. i'm a sports fan.

i was raised a sports fan, and though i tried to get away for so many years, i've come back around. i have the fitted hat. i keep a scorecard at the game. i root, root, root, for the home team. it's over

feel free to check them out yourself at www.nationals.com.

downtown missoula

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oh, Missoula, how i miss you at times. i long to be back in your arms, even just for a moment. to feel your breath on my cheeks, your colors surrounding me. the little things, the sunshine, the railroad tracks, the blackberry muffins at bernices. one more cornucopia sandwich at wordens market.

i love you and hope to see you soon.

the best news of the week

go here for some fantastic news...

http://www.artsjournal.com/aboutlastnight/

scroll down a little and read about how the idaho state house of representatives passed a resolution about the best friggin movie ever.

!!!!!!!!!! that's right, baby.

such sadness

so today was danielle's last day...

that makes me sad. i don't want to get all sappy here on the internet for everyone to see, but i know that i'll miss danielle. i have enjoyed the last--actually, i can't say that i know how long it has been that we've worked together... it seems like i don't remember her not working at the shop. i've learned a bunch from danielle and, hopefully, have helped her to learn a thing or two. although i wish she didn't have to go, i'm excited for all the adventures she'll have out in san fran. travel, experience, good stuff.

vota por summer. in other news, i'm watching napoleon dynamite in spanish right now. i was told that it must be done. i don't speak spanish well. at all. the entertainment comes from the voices they chose for the characters in the movie and how these other actors interpret the script. yeah, it is a very strange must-see for any napoleon fan.

jill says to the world:

"by the way, if i could add to your website, i would say: 9/17 or
bust! we're getting married regardless of rain, monsoon, guests,
dress or hall. if we have to, we'll meet at the courthouse. that's
it and that's all, whether you like it or not!"

that's right, we're getting married on september 17, 2005. and that's final.

excited but puzzled

so i was on low's website, wondering if they may be coming back to the area soon. (they were just here in february) it turns out that they are coming to baltimore in june and i was super pumped. !! but then, i looked to see where the show is...and it is at the rams head live. there is a bar in annapolis called the rams head that i've been to before, and it's good food, nice space, etc, but never a place that i would expect to see low. the place in balt is their other location.

while i'm sure it is a fine venue, i had to wonder quite a bit when i read through their upcoming schedule. while they featured some pretty cool acts including the roots, earlimart, medeski martin and wood, and pinback, they also have coming up: Dwight Yoakam, KC and the Sunshine Band, Europe (the final countdown...now you remember), third eye blind, and steve winwood.

when they were just in town, they played the black cat, with pedro the lion opening. now they are playing six days before winwood (who is playing on my birthday). this might be kind of an odd show for them, but i'm sure they will pull it off. they are playing with a band called no wait wait, who i am not familiar with. find out more info on them here. see low's website to your right with the other links.

hooray for the best band in the world!

Coffee artist...

i had posted a picture below this one of my first triple leaf. this was my second, a few minutes later. liz and ellen thought it was better than the first, so i thought that i would post it as well.



once, i thought such realms of art as unattainable, but now...maybe soon, such feats will be commonplace. we'll see.

First Ever Triple!!

i was supposed to be writing a paper, but i had been thinking about pushing my latte art to a different place all week. i figured it was about time to try the triple leaf...



on my second serious attempt, i pulled this sucker off. not super clean, and i let it sit for a few minutes while i decided whether or not it was worth a picture or not. i guess i decided it was.

kitchen tables!!

yeah!!!!!!!!!!!

jill and i made our first major joing purchase yesterday. we bought this used kitchen table from a friend of a friend that is moving. it has three more chairs and a leaf to make it large for all the parties we are going to have. pretty exciting stuff.

well, the wedding date has gone from september 3 to september 17 back to september 3 and now, likely, back to september 17. but until there is a reception site reserved, i wouldn't place many bets. hopefully, this is it. for our own sanity.

i'm writing a paper on david hume's understanding of personal responsibility and how we come up with ideas about divinity and eternity. yes, those two are related. at least i will present them as such. more exciting stuff.

thoughts about the barista guild of america

i am a new member of the barista guild of america. what a barista is, few know. what we need our own trade association for, even fewer would understand. i definitely see a need for such a community, but since it is still a fairly new entity, we are still trying to figure out who we are and what we are doing. after processing the thoughts i've had the past couple of weeks, i posted this this morning on the bga discussion forum:

[quote="trish"]
I hope that the BGA will be about coffee education and free exchange of ideas not about "how do we please the judges".

um...

please bear with my analogy...

i am a week old bga member. for a long time i dabbled in spirituality, but now i have joined an actual church. i am a card-carrying barista. what does this mean? since i have been a barista for years, my actual role and job description does not change. but now i guess i feel a new obligation to the masses (evangelism) and to the brethren (discipleship). i have visions of crusading through the coffee shops of virginia, dc and maryland sharing the gospel of hardcore specialty coffee and bringing many to salvation...

but...i need a bible to preach from. or some tracts to stuff in tip jars. i feel a little impotent in my mission.

from the bga website:
Simply put, the Barista Guild of America is a trade organization for Baristas. The Barista Guild focuses on promoting coffee quality as the principle standard for success, encouraging craftsmanship through education and collaboration, building community among Baristas, recognizing achievement, and cultivating a sophisticated "public face" for the industry

being a new believer, i look at the mission field of an american public missing the deliciousness of a well-prepared cup of coffee, and the state of a church where 99% of the baristas do not know exactly what they are doing or why and i want to change the world. how do i "promote coffee quality", "encourage craftsmanship", and the rest? as the bga, we can hopefully equip each other and bring many into the fold, and i am definitely excited about where this is going. we are a new religion and are maybe still formulating our doctrine as well as our mission philosophy. don't get me wrong, i am pumped about all that is happening in the industry, etc, etc. i just want help. and i want to help others.

maybe we need some standard literature/resources to use in our evangelizing as deferio suggested...i don't what this all looks like. i just want to know how i can help to stir a coffee revival in this region and around the country outside of just going to work every morning and reading discussion boards.

-end analogy.

puck pyramid brought to you by carlos ramos

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carlos occasionally does the most random things. today he constructed this structure from spent coffee from the morning rush.

danielle is leaving us. i am sad about that. she has to go and move to san francisco. darn ambition.

...i guess we have to try to move the wedding date. there is a wedding the same weekend involving one of jill's family friends and will require the attendance of many and the desired attendance of jill's family. so we are now exploring a date a couple of weeks later. now i have to go tell everyone a different date. hopefully everything will work out well.

back in eastern market

well, i'm home.

i apologize for not winning. i am not the united states barista champion. but i am still a champion. in the hearts of so many. like my mom. and my fiance.

it was a lot of fun in seattle and a joy to compete alongside so many wonderful people who make wonderful coffee. superstars in the coffee world. to be 20th in the competition behind the nineteen ahead of me is an honor, even though i wanted to rank a bit higher.

and now...well, i guess i'm famous. i was part of a story nationally broadcast on npr on all things considered and locally on wamu (scroll down to "holy grail of espresso"). people have been wandering into the shop to see what all the press is about. hopefully we are delivering.

seattle was beautiful as always and we had great weather. my feet and legs are still a bit sore from all the walking and my mind is reeling from all that i learned from everyone this weekend.

ready or not...

well, at about 4:30 today, i will take the stage and make a bunch of coffee...

i spent hours last night and this morning perfecting the mix of music that i will use for my fifteen minutes of competition time.

the final line-up:
sufjan stevens- he woke me up again
kings of convenience- live long
rogue wave- be kind and remind
benjamin gibbard- farmer chords
nick drake- from the morning
iron and wine- peng!

the most important part of my performance is complete. now all i have to do is make some espresso and smile like my life depended on it.

off to the usbc

well, it's time. in the morning i will be flying to seattle to compete in the united states barista championship. i am very excited and a little nervous. my milk technique is down, i'm perfecting my introduction, i need to trim my beard. more than anything, i'm just excited to get to be there. it should be a lot of fun and very, very interesting.

there isn't a whole lot else to say. other than it's time for me to go pick up my tuxedo. that's right, tuxedo. we'll see what happens. go murky!!!!!

the homer simpson showboating academy

michelle kwan is millhouse's idol.

it's kind of weird that they are rerunning a simpsons episode from like a month ago.

anyways, on saturday night, i went with a couple friends to see lou barlow at the iota. it was interesting to see this old skool indie rock star (see sebadoh, folk implosion) now aged, both married and with child. he played some of his old somewhat depressing songs from albums released when i was in junior high and high school but also played a few tracks from his new album, EMOH (HOME backwards), that have a bit more optimistic tone.

he remarked that a girl approached him after his show in philadelphia, asking him if she could be honest with him. she ended up critiquing his music, stating that none of the songs have ends. they are all left unresolved. lou didn't really know what to do with that. he didn't really have a defense, but he also didn't really recognize why they don't have ends.

i would venture to say that they shouldn't have ends. a song, an emotion, a prayer--none of these really have concise conclusions. and maybe we shouldn't pretend that they do. even though lou is married, his love for his wife isn't final. it grows, it changes, there are joys, there are pains. to finish a song and have the listener see the whole picture and have a sense of finality--well, that's not reality. that's not honesty. ...just a thought. keep being honest, lou.

"stop american nationalism"

that was the message of a bumper sticker that i saw yesterday as i left to go do laundry. during my drive, i found myself pondering what such a bumper sticker is suggesting.

question 1: who is this addressed to? an individual, a group of people, the government? i would assume that this statement is geared toward the american public. toward the group of people who live in this country and possibly consider themselves to be americans.

question 2: what exactly is american nationalism? on a definition level, nationalism is defined by www.dictionary.com as
1. Devotion to the interests or culture of one's nation.
2. The belief that nations will benefit from acting independently rather than collectively, emphasizing national rather than international goals.
3. Aspirations for national independence in a country under foreign domination.

definition's #1 and #3 appear to be fairly positive things in most any light, so #2 is probably what is being attacked. on one level, yes, we need to consider international interests. obviously. (i'm sure the bumper stickerer would argue as well that it is obvious, but not followed) but we could all think of ways that the international interest may be irrational and against what any single person might deem to be a positive international goal. i, for instance, would like to see the world push more towards being on a strict diet of cornmeal pancakes and straight espresso (but not mixed).

so the attack is against a group of people looking out for themselves, right? if my whole neighborhood decided that they were going to persecute scandinavians and my family thought that that was not fair or reasonable and acted in our own interest against this injustice, are we deemed family-ists and branded as being uncooperative? where is our commitment to the neighborhood? well, it fell to the commitment to justice, truth and, finally, what will benefit my family (because we'd be scandinavian). i am aware that my examples are somewhat ridiculous and extreme, but it seems natural that an element of nationalism must exist or else the nation or people group will not be strong in themselves, but just bow to what where the greater wind blows.

question 3: how should we stop such a thing? so is the bumper person suggesting that we put or national identity on the altar? i don't know what this looks like. "i am no longer an american"? but i live here. i live next to people. i live in america with a group of other americans. stopping me from having a national identity and looking out for our interests is asking more than i'm willing to give (and i know that the argument is that we may be looking out for our own interests directly in the face of international interests) and i can't believe that we even could do this, even if we tried.

if we aren't a nation, what are we? if you don't like our policies as a nation, or as a gov't, then argue for a change of policy, not a disassembly of the community that we have called america. i don't know if this makes much sense at all, but neither does forsaking my nationalism for the sake of some vague idealism that doesn't correspond to the real world. one must be careful in throwing out the very positive and community-and peace-building aspects of nationalism along with the political moves that are possibly dangerous 'nationalism' as was alluded to in the bumper sticker. we want and need each other in the communal sense, whether that is a family, a city, or a nation. yes, even as communities, we are not infallible. but that does not legitimize a full-on overthrow of community-forming.

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yes here it is

a little get to know you

so i manage a coffee shop, right. and there are all these people that wander in and out. some of them are great and others, not so great. some provide intrigue, but others fatigue.

last week i was walking to the bank and was stopped by a gentleman on the sidewalk. he asked me if i knew where to find free wireless internet. i looked at myself, wondering if i, indeed, look like someone who knows where to find such things (i was reassured later that i certainly do), before telling him, "yes. go to the corner and take a left. you'll see murky coffee. they have wireless." he expressed his gratitude and walked off and i continued to the bank with a smile on my face, thinking how serendipitous it was (the word he used later) that, of all the people he was to ask, he asked the guy who runs a shop providing what he searches for. what a great city. what a great neighborhood. what a great human race. how lovely. how divine.

as i walked into the bank to do the daily deposit for the shop, something horrible occurred to me. "what if he's one of those guys?" the next day, my question was answered. although i was happy to see him return after he sat for an hour the day before, working on his computer and spending five bucks or so, he pulled out the headset for his phone and proceeded to make a half hour long phone call to the customer service department for some major electronics retailer, trying to sort out some problem he was having. he was loud. he had one of those kind of whiny annoying voices. he was sitting at the bar about four feet from me the whole time.

fine. come in. do your work. talk on your phone. whatever. but don't be loud. don't fill the whole shop with your complaining about how the digital video camera you bought doesn't have the promised capabilities, etc. grrrrr. why does this bother me so????

part of me wishes i had never run into this gentleman. i could've sent him to another coffee shop a few blocks down the road. i could've denied him service for annoying me. the other part of me...well, honestly, i don't think i'm going to give in and just say that it's all about serving people and loving them and making him a great latte whether he is owed it for being such a fine customer or not. all i will say is that some days i get it better than others. i'll leave it at that.

another pic of my baby and me

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this was taken last summer at our friends wedding reception. look how clean shaven!
i have realized the comfort that i have now in the status of our relationship. engaged is better than dating. dating was definitely better than friends. hopefully, married will be better than engaged. i think it will.

although i don't know what my job situation will be like in 6-8 months (basically, whether or not i want to continue at murkycoffee), i do know what the greater context of my life will be. i know i'll be here in dc and with the love of my life. job security is down the list of priorities at the moment. just don't tell jill's parents...or mine.

juliet

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got the pic even though she fought against.

new york love

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here is a picture of my love and me in times square right before christmas. we were psyched about traveling together, feeling that we might continue to see the world with each other, but now it's a bit more secure.
she is the mostest beautiful. more pretty than nyc any day. i love my jill soooo much. i remarked the other day, "i love this girl so much that i'd even buy ice cream full price for her."

everything changes in an instant

"are you kidding me?" was the response that i was looking for. she was very surprised and elated. "will you marry me?" "will you see the world with me?" "will you spend the rest of your life with me?" calls to parents and time spent crying. oh, glorious. ewen quoted a book the other day, saying, "romantic love is a trapdoor to a lifetime of sacrifice." well, here we go.

now the little questions begin...pick a date, find a place for a reception, what kind of cake do we want, etc, etc, etc, etc, etc. and etc. but it will be oh, so good.

this site will take the shape of a "how to poorly plan a wedding in six short months." an adventure, life is.

i woke up in the middle of the night with the united live song, "shine for you,"in my head: "look across the world / and let us shine for you, Lord / the whole world is yours / and I want to live for you, O God." that pretty much sums it up. here we are, for You.

8:12 on the morn of life's changing

Today it is ripe. She is mine and I am hers. I will put a ring on her finger. Scary. Beautiful. Faith. Hopefully she will be surprised. Hopefully I will not stutter.

Damien Rice serenades my musings...getting me in the mood, I suppose, though I have about 14 hours before the actual engagement...engaging...question asking...proposal. It's a proposal.

Exciting. Still scary. God help us.